Musebox

[heartismyown]

 I need to practice with Roxas! Please drop me a line.


Roxas finished smashing the computer, the one that ruined his life. He swung around angrily and stalked off into an unknown room where he found Sora, fast asleep.

DiZ appeared before him. His eyes narrowed, his hand clenched tightly around the keyblade as he swung it back and forth wildly, attempting to attack him. He was familiar. He was the one who did this to him. It was all about that Sora!

"My heart is my own!" Roxas cried, spinning around. Everything has gone white.

When Roxas awakened, he found himself face to face with....

Comments

[heartismyown]

I don't think so, but I'll read it. I haven't done any of these things.

[by_heart]

[He's torn between asking what sort of things Roxas means or hoping Roxas doesn't tell him, so he just tries to read over his shoulder instead.]

[heartismyown]

[Roxas goes quiet since he's still reading about kissing, but when he turns the page it starts getting into more sexually explicit acts.]

[by_heart]

[Lea makes a strangled little noise.]

Okay, maybe that's enough of that for today!

[OR EVER.]

[heartismyown]

[Roxas glances up at him, blinking.]

What do you mean? It's talking about touching now.

[He flicks through a page or two about girls, how is that gonna help him?]

[by_heart]

I know what it's talking about!

[There better not be illustrations!]

[heartismyown]

[Well it wasn't, but then there was a picture of a naked girl and Roxas blushes. Eep! He turns the page pretty quick.]

[by_heart]

[So he can get embarrassed. That's a relief at least.]

See, it's just gonna get worse from there.

[heartismyown]

But I want to know!

[Even if he's blushing, how else is he gonna learn?]

Unless you're gonna show me, I have to read it!

[by_heart]

You don't have to read it NOW! You know what a naked guy looks like, anyway!

[It's not like there aren't mirrors in the house. Of course, this is ignoring that that's probably not all Roxas means by "showing him"...]

[heartismyown]

Yeah, I know that. That's not what I mean. There's more than pictures in the book.

[Huh, how about that, the touching leads to pleasure. He can read about how that works.]

See, look? There's words here!

[by_heart]

[Yes, he sees that there are words there and he's kind of staring at them in morbid fascination.]

And you don't need to read them right now! Whatever happened to the whole "dating" part of the book?!

[heartismyown]

That was the first part of the book. Going out, spending time together, kissing, stuff like that. This is the other part of the book.

[Well duh, Lea.]

[by_heart]

[Lea just sighs and scrubs his hand over his face. He's halfway tempted to let him just read it. If the tries to tell him not to at this point, he's just going to want to find out why and read it anyway when he's not looking.

Maybe he'll embarrass himself and give up.

He can hope.]

Right.

[heartismyown]

[He looks up at him from the couch again.]

How do you ask someone to do this stuff?

[by_heart]

What, that's not in the book?

[Deflect. DEFLECT.]

[heartismyown]

Nah, it just explains what you do.

[by_heart]

Some book. Riku should ask for a refund.

[At least Roxas hasn't had any commentary on the "what you do" part yet.]

[heartismyown]

[He tilts his head a bit.]

You didn't answer my question again.

[His tone is less than enthusiastic. A little tired.]

[by_heart]

[Damn. Roxas is starting to catch on to that more and more. And has no reference point for "I'm embarrassed and this is making me uncomfortable."]

I know. Go ahead and snap at me about it.

[heartismyown]

[Roxas would, but now he's got some ideas in his head about relationships and thinking back on Lea's reluctance and he doesn't want to talk about these things, maybe it's one of those other dating things, about how the other person doesn't really like you. Huh. He hadn't really considered it before now.]

It's okay. It's a dumb book anyway. I'll give it back to Riku tomorrow.

[by_heart]

Hey, what's that face for? I said snap at me, not look like a kicked puppy.

[The poor kid looks miserable and as usual he has no idea why. Some friend he is, really, always saying the wrong thing, even when he's trying his best not to.]

Listen, it's just...

[He frowns and shakes his head.]

I'm embarrassed, okay?

[heartismyown]

It's okay. Why are you embarrassed? You don't have to tell me. I don't...I don't need to know anymore.

[by_heart]

[Don't need to know anymore? That sounds ominous. Well, if Roxas has learned to catch him out when he's being evasive, he's learned to say what he means sometimes.]

I just never thought it was something we'd have to talk about and now you're kind of springing it on me all at once. I already messed up kissing you the first time. I don't think I'm really ready to mess up this stuff, too. Go a little easy on me, okay? I've...

[He stares fixedly at his fork and fiddles around with it like it's the most interesting thing in the room right now.]

I've never really been in love before, either, you know.

[heartismyown]

[Roxas tilts his head. Lea can kind of thank his selective memory.]

I don't remember it being messed up. I liked kissing you.

[His eyes go wide, oh yeah. He had said that before.]

You didn't? Not even before you were Axel?