Musebox

[heartismyown]

 I need to practice with Roxas! Please drop me a line.


Roxas finished smashing the computer, the one that ruined his life. He swung around angrily and stalked off into an unknown room where he found Sora, fast asleep.

DiZ appeared before him. His eyes narrowed, his hand clenched tightly around the keyblade as he swung it back and forth wildly, attempting to attack him. He was familiar. He was the one who did this to him. It was all about that Sora!

"My heart is my own!" Roxas cried, spinning around. Everything has gone white.

When Roxas awakened, he found himself face to face with....

Comments

[by_heart]

It's about you not kissing people!

[heartismyown]

Yeah, okay, but you didn't like that, so you don't want to kiss people?

[by_heart]

I never said I didn't--

It's not that I don't--

[He hides his face behind his hand. He has to be beet red by now. This is humiliating.]

Just don't go kissing anyone like that, okay?!

[heartismyown]

Okay, next time I'll ask someone first.

[He's still curious, but Lea doesn't need to know that. Besides he might be able to find his answers. Maybe he can even ask Riku.]

[by_heart]

That's not what I mean!

[He still can't look at him.]

Only if you love them, okay? Then you ask.

[Please don't go around kissing anyone who'll let you, Roxas.]

[heartismyown]

I don't know about that. What if I can't love anyone? I can ask Riku about it maybe.

[Seems like Lea doesn't know much about this topic, hmm. If Riku doesn't want to talk, someone will.]

[by_heart]

Ask anyone you want about love, just no kissing.

[He's sure Roxas will just get his head filled with nonsense that way, but they can always sort through it together afterwards, the way they do with everything else he learns.]

I'm sure you can love somebody, though, so don't worry about that.

[heartismyown]

Well then how am I going to know about kissing?

[by_heart]

[He still has his hand on his face, so he nudges him with his elbow instead of swatting him.]

You wait until you find the right person and either they'll teach you or you'll figure it out together, I don't know.

[heartismyown]

But you always teach me things. You're the smart one.

[He nudges him back.]

I'd rather you teach me.

[by_heart]

I know.

[He knows that all too well.

Dammit.

This is stupid. He's stupid for letting things get this far.]

Once, okay? Just to get it out of your system.

[There's no taking it back now that he's said it.]

[heartismyown]

Okay.

[Roxas looks at him with a grin. As long as Lea says it's okay, then he can do it right?]

[by_heart]

[It's that trusting grin that just makes this worse. Lea takes a deep breath and lets it out. He shouldn't draw this out.

Or make it last.

Or enjoy it.

Just get it over with.]

Okay.

[He leans down and kisses Roxas gently, counting the seconds to give himself something else to focus on. Anything to distract from how it feels and how much he's wanted to to know. He gives himself a count of ten, then pulls back and immediately turns so that Roxas can't see his face and he can't see Roxas at all.]

[heartismyown]

[The kiss is really nice in the end, and Roxas can understand why Sora seemed to like it, it made him feel nice and warm in his chest. He's not sure if that's what is supposed to happen, but all the same, really nice.

When Lea pulls away he lets out a soft, disappointed noise despite himself, and now he's not looking at him. Roxas wants to ask but Lea doesn't seem like he would answer.]

[by_heart]

So there you go. Now you know what it's like.

[Please let it be enough.]

[heartismyown]

It was really good.

[Roxas isn't sure why Lea's acting this way, unless he didn't agree. That was possible. Maybe he wasn't very good at kissing.]

[by_heart]

[It was good. That's the problem.]

Well, people do it for a reason...

[heartismyown]

Yeah, I guess so.

[Lea seems so cagey and Roxas doesn't know what to do about that.]

You seem...I don't know. Different.

[by_heart]

What? I'm the same as ever.

[That's pretty much the problem.]

Anyway, I guess we're ordering out for dinner tonight...

[heartismyown]

[Roxas sighs a little.]

Yeah, okay.

[by_heart]

Don't sound so disappointed. My cooking's not that great.

[heartismyown]

It's not that. It's that you seem...I don't know. Upset you kissed me. Was I bad at it or something?

[by_heart]

[He's upset with himself. He shouldn't have taken advantage of the situation like that. He should have let him just go out and learn on his own. It's wrong of him to try to keep him to himself the way he does and he's only made it worse with this.]

You had no idea what you were doing, so of course you were bad at it.

[Except not really.]

[heartismyown]

[If Roxas wanted to be somewhere else, he has options, and he doesn't. He wants to be with Lea.]

Oh, it was bad then? I'm sorry.

[by_heart]

You'll figure it out. Just need practice, that's all.

[He busies himself with the takeout menus, still avoiding eye contact at all costs.]